Thursday, March 25, 2010

A bunch of thoughts.

What a long week it's been already and it's only Thursday. Right now I am in the library at school. I really should be studying and doing my Algebra home work but I still have 2 hours before my next class. I'm at a crossroads with Algebra right now. I am not doing well at all in the class. I have failed a few quizzes (thank god for extra credit though I don't really know how much it's going to help me) and took a midterm on Tuesday that I wasn't ready for. I'm pretty sure if I failed that, which is worth 25% of my grade, that I should probably drop the class and do it again this summer. I thought at the time that I might have done okay but reflecting on it now, I'm not so sure. I'll know at 4pm. If I have to do the class again, it would suck because right now financial aid is paying for it. If I withdraw from it, I'll have to pay for it next time. But it's vital to pass it because I still have one more prerequisite before I can move onto Accounting 1 & 2 which I need to get my Associates in Marketing. I think I'm doing fairly well in my other classes, on the up side of things.

I went for my second interview yesterday for my prospectively new job. The job is working with people with disabilities, which is something I have always wanted to do. A friend of mine has been working for the organization for almost 10 years and let me use her name as my reference. Both interviews went very well. We are now just reviewing my options to see which program I will fit best in. It looks like right now they will be able to start me out with about 20 hours but in April there is a chance I could pick up a full-time position. The woman I interviewed with yesterday said something that brightened my day. If I take the full-time position, it would include the best benefits around. Blue Cross for medical. Paid Holidays, Sick Time, Vacation, Overtime. All things I've never had before because I've been waitressing since high school. She also told me it'd be my chance to tell the shitty restaurant I work for to "go pound sand". Sounds like an amazing idea to me.

I sat down with my boss on Monday when I went to pick up my check. He apologized for cutting my hours. He gave me a hug, told me to keep on his ass to make sure he gave me enough hours. I know he's got a lot going on but is it my responsibility to hold his hand while he writes the schedule? If I'm so "important" then why can't he remember to do this on his own. I don't know. Things around there are so shady. I got a call back on another waitress job but I'm hesitant on returning the call. But maybe I should just do it, just to check things out. It couldn't hurt. I just really want that other job and say goodbye to serving. Speaking of, I pulled a double yesterday. They were super short handed and I need the money. Plus I thought it'd look good for my case. It was good money but 13 hours at that place is far too much.

Anyway, guess it's time for me to get to studying. Ciao for now!

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Birthday Rant. Happy 25th. Sincerely, your shitty job.

Today was the perfect day to turn 25. The sun was shining, the weather high in the 60s. I thoroughly enjoyed this weekend and was ready to go back to work tomorrow morning all refreshed. When I asked for my new schedule I was told I've been scheduled only two days. Happy Fucking Birthday from everybody's favorite chain restaurant.

I have taken this blow in a couple of different ways. My first reaction of course is to freak out and have this instantaneous sensation to march my ass down to the store and give this poor excuse for a manager a piece of my mind. But unfortunately, it's not going to solve anything and plus, it is my birthday afterall. The second way to deal? Oh good, I only have to go there two days this week. This is what I get for all of my hard work and dedication.

I haven't called out in over two years. I am always on time, do my job to corporate "standard" and I think I do a damn good job. And how do they repay me? By giving me two shifts? And guess where my shifts have gone. To the girl who calls out after being out at the bar all night and has a baby who stays with her cousin all weekends so she can have a good time. So automatically because she has a child and I don't, I should suffer? I have bills to pay. I am seriously at my wits end with this low life excuse for a job. I have given this place 6 years of my life. And here I am, not knowing what's going to happen. When I go to pick up my check tomorrow, I will be sitting down with my manager. I am going to be as calm, mature and professional as I possibly can.

I have a feeling of where this is stemming from. This place has been run so lackluster and half-ass for so long, and with the economy in the shape it's in, corporate is breathing down the necks of the higher management and telling them to straighten these places out or else. If it means hiring ALL new staff and getting rid of the old, so be it. We are just a number, after all. Thank god I am in college. Thank god I know that this is not the end of the road for me and better things are coming. I just need to exercise all of my options. I really am counting on this job I interviewed for. Hopefully they will be calling me the minute they get the results of my background check. Maybe monday morning? It would be too perfect since I don't have to work anyway.

In other news, my birthday was pretty damn good. I visited with close family and friends and tried to enjoy my day. Now it's time for me to go catch up on homework and study for my Algebra Midterm on tuesday.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Revisiting an old feeling.

In celebration of my 25th birthday tomorrow, I took the weekend off from work which is something I never do. So to get the weekend started off right, I drank with a few of my closest friends. It was a fantastic evening and I got quite inebriated.

Around 3am when we were good and buzzed, me, Kayla, and Aimee sat down at the table in Kayla and Ryan's apartment and had a deep conversation on life. Kayla exposed some deep stuff about her life that I never knew about her. We got to talking about her fears about her brother being in Iraq and she told me how much she admired my ability to be strong after the loss of my brother. My brother was killed in a car crash on April 9, 2007; it's going to be a 3 years next month. In our conversation, she said admired how I dealt with my life after losing him and how strong I have been ever since. But what a lot of people will never understand is that I didn't have a choice. There was no other way for me to deal than to be strong for my family. My brother and I were very close and I never really talked about some of the things I revealed last night about our past and just how much I really miss him. It's true, I never ever talk about it. I don't have anyone close enough to me that would ever care to listen. Well that was until last night. I feel so much better knowing that she's there for me, and I am there for her. We all really need that in life. That deep personal connection to share with a friend because let's face it, we all have a story. We all need that outlet and I haven't had that in years with anyone. I never realized how much I missed it.

I am a strong person. I feel like I am finally doing things the way I should be. I am going to school. Not only for my own personal gain, but to make my parents proud. They struggled their whole lives to give us everything they possibly could. I owe it to them to do something with my life. I also keep a positive attitude towards everything in life. Sometimes too positive, but I don't see anything wrong with that.

And on that note, I am going to go lay down and watch Knocked Up. I love this movie! Come tomorrow I will be 25. It's such a weird concept to be halfway through my twenties.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Happy St Patty's Day!!

I'm at work right now and haven't had a customer yet. I'm so bored! I really hope to make a few bucks today so I have money to go out with this weekend to celebrate my birthday! I turn 25 on Sunday and am in no hurry. haha.
I called the lady back about the job interview and we set one up for this afternoon at 3. I am really looking forward to this. The job is working with people with disabilities, something I have always wanted to do. Not to mention it's a great job with benefits! It is also a state job so that means I'd get holidays off!! I am having way too much fun entertaining this idea. Hopefully I will have good news soon!

I must run. Hope I get a table soon so I don't get sent home early! Cheers to the next 4 days off!! (minus school tomorrow including my Marketing midterm which will be a piece of cake!)

Happy St Pattys Day! I might try cornbeef and cabbage for the first time to go with my green beer!

Monday, March 15, 2010

Rain, rain, go away.

We've been having some awful weather this past week. Since Friday it's done nothing but rain and it's now Monday night! Hopefully the sun will make an appearance soon because this weather is so gloomy.

Work has been draining, to say the least. The new management is going crazy with all of these new changes and "corporate standards". Working for a chain, of course there is the Corporate way of doing things, and then the normal way. When those big shots make these rules and "standards", I'm willing to bet most of them have never been at the bottom of the totem pole, or if they have, they've completely forgotten what it's like. To run a shift, they do not allow us to even have something or someone so simple as a Dishwasher. I understand it's not in the budget but how can we build sales if us servers have to wash dishes, wait on tables, prep desserts/entrees, etc etc. It takes away from our service and ultimately hurts our tips.

However, I have been looking for a new job more aggressively in the past week. I got a callback today on the one I want the most so I am setting up an interview in the morning. I really hope it goes well. My goal is to make this new job my priority and have serving as a second income, as opposed to my primary. Especially in these uncertain times. How I will juggle two jobs, school, and a relationship could be a challenge but it is one I am willing to take on.

Speaking of school, I did not so much as open a book during spring break last week and I have class tomorrow morning so I must go now to finish my essay that's due first period. See ya later!

Saturday, March 6, 2010

My new obsession? Lush!

So I went shopping for like 8 hours yesterday! It was so fun and just an all around amazing day with one of my best friends but let me get to what I consider the best part of the whole day. We were leaving the food court after lunch and I spotted the store Lush across the way. I've always been curious as to what Lush was and so my friend and I decided to stop in and check it out.

What a wonderful idea it was.
As we entered the place, the smell alone was a little overbearing but I was willing to give it a chance. My curiosity really overtook me on this one. The giant bars of soap with different labels. The funky descriptions and writing everywhere. As my friend was asking me what this place was, I didn't even have an answer. One of the girls working there invited us to join in on a hand therapy session. Of course we said yes! It involved different creams and this amazing bar named Buffy which was an exfoliater and that alone was worth it. Our hands were so baby smooth after this demo that I just had to know more. We tried so many different samples and demos and such and continued to browse for about an hour.

We both, oddly enough, spent about $45 in this fabulous store. I'm addicted. I want to go back already. The products they carry, such as bath fizz, hand soap, moisturizers, facial masks, massaging bars, shampoo, etc.. are quite pricey. I consider myself pretty thrifty, it that's the right word, when it comes to shopping. I rarely splurge on such things but I figured I would give Lush a chance.

So I leave you now to go exfoliate, moisturize, and cleanse with all of my new sweet smelling goodies. More on those later. xoxo

PS- If you have no idea what the hell Lush is, check out their site @

Friday, March 5, 2010

It's been awhile.

I disappeared again! What do ya know? haha.

Things have been quite hectic lately. I'm actively trying to balance school, work and a social life. Such is life though right? I have to admit, ever since I moved in with my boyfriend almost 2 years ago, my social life was DOA. Now I'm trying to nurture it back to life and slowly but surely I'm getting there. I've been reconciling old friendships and trying to maintain new ones. I don't like being a hermit!

School's going pretty well. I love my Marketing class, and I might as well since it is my major. I met with a 4 year college yesterday to make sure my credits will transfer over after I earn my Associate's. So far, so good. I'm still struggling in Algebra. I always have but I want so badly to master it and move on.

Work's the same. We have a new General Manager, here we go again. He actually seems like a fairly decent guy. New to the company and willing to work with everyone's schedules which is good. I do have an interview next week but I'm not getting my hopes up. Tips have been fair, weekends are still the cash cow. Cash cow, look at me using my Marketing vocab. My professor would be proud.

Anyway, I must run. I am headed to the greatest mall ever with my friend and tons of great coupons to use. I am addicted to coupons. haha. See ya soon!