Wide Awake...

It's 12:30am and I am wide awake, sitting here with my laptop and watching National Lampoon's Vacation.

I am thrilled to have the next 4 days off. My job is really getting to me. I don't know if it's the customers or if it's me. Probably just a good combination of the two. People have been so miserable lately. We get a lot of tourists with the beach being so close but because of all the rain, well they're here and stuck inside. Even the locals are bad. I can't wait for the nice weather to come and get people out of their misery.

I'm getting that old feeling again about wanting to just get out of the restaurant business completely. So I just don't even want to be there anymore. I've applied for every damn job that I can find and still no luck. It really sucks to be stuck there in this economy slump. They expect us to work like we're getting crazy benefits and shall I even say... appreciation. We don't get any sort of appreciation except for when the customers tip for the service. The company doesn't give a shit, the management is all about numbers and figures, which comes down to labor. Cutting us wicked short just to save a buck but in the long run, leaving us servers running ragged. They want to know why people call out so much. Or why no one wants to pick up a shift. And I have just been doing it this way for a long time and need a big change. I'm waiting on one application I filled out for a local bank but I'm not gonna get my hopes too high, just in case. But it would be so nice if this could be my big break.

I can't wait to start college in August just to know I'm working towards a career. That there is a possibility that I won't have to do this forever. The grant I received was heaven sent I swear. I know even if I don't end up with a new job right away, the whole school thing will keep me going.

I'm going to try and go lay down. ttyl.

Just a Note..

I'm writing to say I'm not writing tonight. Thanks! :-)

Who I am.

Seeing how this is my 3rd post on my new blog, I might as well give you some insight into who I am. My name is Jessi and I am 24 years old. I live in Rhode Island and have lived on the RI/CT border for most of my life. I am not new to the blogging world but this is my first time back in quite a few years. I used to keep journals on Livejournal and Blurty when I was in high school. I am hoping to stick to blogging frequently, hopefully every day.
I have a boyfriend whom I have been dating for almost 3 years. We have an apartment about 20 minutes away from where I work and grew up. As I will explain later, I needed to get out of that town. It's my way of being close enough to my family and friends, but far enough to actually go home and not be just 5 minutes away from everyone I have ever known. It feels good to know I can go to the grocery store and not know everyone there, as silly as that sounds. It just makes sense.
I am a waitress and have been for about 5 years. I begin school in August to finally make something of myself. I know I am not living my life to it's full potential and it eats away at my soul. I am really looking forward to school, even if it is just a community college. I am going for a Marketing Transfer Degree which simply means I will obtain my Associate's Degree and transfer to a 4-year school to earn my Bachelor's Degree. My goal is to get into the advertising business and design print ads.
I am off to shower and get to ready to go to bed now, I'll write again tomorrow. Ciao.

a sign that the sun is still burning!

seriously, the rain can commence.

Here in New England, the rain has been falling for what would seem to us as an eternity. The sun appears briefly, usually in the late afternoon when everyone's moral is already shot for the day. It's all too depressing. In fact too many things these days are depressing so we are relying on the sun to give us the ambition and lift our spirits to look forward brightly. I mean certainly things could be worse but they could be just a little bit better.
I spent the day in the great indoors. It was the perfect day for staying in pajamas and watching movies. I love these kinds of days. Just knowing that I don't have to do a damn thing! I'm going to leave you now and go look up how to tutorials on youtube. I'm currently teaching myself Dreamweaver CS4 because I am getting back into web design. I have a couple business opportunities that I would be silly to turn down so my mind needs a little refreshing. I wonder what I'm getting myself into now that it's been a few years since I was so very effecient with the hypertext markup language. I'm sure alot has changed.
Okay I shall talk to you later.